I think it has become a ritual for me to do a mini reflection for every major exams, including the mid years which we have just completed and a.k.a the 2nd last exams we will ever have before A levels.

This is the first time that i seriously have nothing to say about my results. I mean, in the past, it's either that i felt satisfied or displeased. But this time, it's like the subjects that i expected to screw up turned out better than expected, while the subject(s) i pinned my hopes on disappointed me so much. (i.e. Econs)

And yes, the impact of my Econs results still lingers currently, despite my efforts to convince myself that i can turn this 'adversity' into a source of motivation.

I think that what's most important now is not to brood about the results, but to know where and how to progress from here, where to start, where to improve on, which i currently have no idea at all.

The journey ahead is going to be arduous and i'm quite skeptical about my progress and whether I can even sit through the full papers for prelims, when mid years was so torturous.
But well, at least my last committment on hand, i.e. Paradigma ended today and on a rather pleasant note. I can finally devote my time to studies.


I'm sounding so incoherent. Argh, sorry, i just need sleep.

On a side note, i signed myself up for a pilates course, which falls on every thursday. I'm excited for tomorrow! Hopefully, it isn't a bad choice to sign up for a course at this crucial point in time.