A rant post ahead.
I'm currently part of a committee of a major varsity event and I just have some dissatisfaction about my team. Maybe working with BHBH8 was so enjoyable that no other groups are comparable.
I know it's quite unrealistic to compare a YEP team to an organising comm, but i guess it's okay to have some basic expectations of people right?

The dynamics of the group is just...off. Everyone seems fake. They can appear so bonded and comfortable with each other in group meetings and chats but outside of that, everyone is just minding their own business.
Today I was so put off by the attitude of this team mate. We bumped into each other along an enclosed staircase area. She made a fast eye contact with me but quickly look down. I was staring at her, hoping to make eye contact so I can pop a quick 'hi'. And mind you, this is the SECOND time i bumped into her and the same thing happens for both times. Ok, even if we may not be very close, at least say a friendly 'hi' will die meh?

As a matter of fact, we are going to be working together for 4-5 months. and... i'm dreading every moment of it. I just want to get my duties done and that's all to that. I foresee myself going back to 'hi-bye' acquaintances with them after the end of the event. I'm okay with a few of them but the group dynamics in general is just..... sigh.

On a side note, recently i find myself gaining this unspeakable energy inside me. Like I'm getting the momentum to work my butt off as in my JC and secondary school years. Despite sleeping 5 hours or less daily.
Every since i entered uni, i got kind of disillusioned, lost focus and flunked my studies. Maybe I'm in the wrong course. I dont know. But as of now, maybe partly attributed to the painful wake up call from my mid term results, I am gaining that force to get back on my feet and STUDY. HARD. & to work for my dream SEP in Europe.
GO GO GO!!